Frustrated...my friend is so deceived. My spirit is grieved whenever I talk with her. We had an argument today. I am not confrontational at all, but I'm so tired of the limbo. One day she's good, one day she's bad...it's ridiculous. The other guy has weaved lies around her that are so grotesque. I told her today that she had a choice to be miserable or be happy. She doesn't realize she'll be miserable either way. All her divorced friends say that divorce is great and they have no regrets. She says when she's with this other guy, God uses them and blesses others because of their love. I think my spirit just threw up....I think of the other guy and my stomach literally gets sick. I'm still praying. I'm praying this other guy will do something so stupid she'll see his true character, for her true salvation, she'll see her husband for what an awesome guy he's becoming, that all of the lies will fall away and she'll have eyes to see and ears to hear the TRUTH! I'm at a point where I'm just like do it, just divorce your husband and then don't bring that other guy around. But God says keep praying, she's not filed any divorce papers yet, He can break down the shell that's been built around her heart. I'm hopeful one minute then devastated the next.
I'm sorry, I needed to vent and just get my thoughts out. I feel so frustrated.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Sunday, August 1, 2010
A New Start
This week is full of newness for my lil' Lyssa. She starts school tomorrow. Granted it is only pre-k, it'll be from 8:30 until 11:45 five days a week. For me, this is a big thing. She has been with me for four years, very rarely did she leave my side. There are many days when I need a break from her, but she's my little side kick. I think her being gone for half a day will help our relationship a good deal. She's a little nervous about tomorrow. I pray she does well. I'll let you know how it goes.
Not only does she start school this week, but she turns FOUR on Friday...FOUR! That was the longest fastest four years. I've seen her grow and change. I am excited to see what the next four years hold.
On a different note, I had a hard week and felt very inadequate as a mom. I was praying and realized that that was a lie from satan. So, I am praying through that unbelief and started reading Proverbs 31. God revealed to me that I do have a job, cooking healthy, cleaning, shopping, raising my children. And I need to do my job unto the Lord. I felt an overwhelming sense of peace with that. I can't be the perfect mom/wife I want to be. But I can be who God wants me to be and He'll lead me from there. My attitude was/amd still sometimes is not what I want it to be. I can feel that if I don't change, I'll become very selfish and that is the last thing I want.
Anyway, I don't know if any of that made sense to you, but for me, it's what God had for me!!
Not only does she start school this week, but she turns FOUR on Friday...FOUR! That was the longest fastest four years. I've seen her grow and change. I am excited to see what the next four years hold.
On a different note, I had a hard week and felt very inadequate as a mom. I was praying and realized that that was a lie from satan. So, I am praying through that unbelief and started reading Proverbs 31. God revealed to me that I do have a job, cooking healthy, cleaning, shopping, raising my children. And I need to do my job unto the Lord. I felt an overwhelming sense of peace with that. I can't be the perfect mom/wife I want to be. But I can be who God wants me to be and He'll lead me from there. My attitude was/amd still sometimes is not what I want it to be. I can feel that if I don't change, I'll become very selfish and that is the last thing I want.
Anyway, I don't know if any of that made sense to you, but for me, it's what God had for me!!
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