I was at our group Sunday night and we were just worshipping God. I have lost my voice so I just sat and drank in the worship. God revealed something to me. I have become extremely selfish. It has gotten worse with this pregnancy and all of the junk going along with it. I do get tired easily and There are many times I just need to sit and put my feet up. But My alone time is very selfish. I felt God I need to be selflessly alone. As in instead of being a bum and watching tv and reading books. Spend my time with Him in prayer for my family and friends and take on a warrior attitude for the things that belong to Him. It is amazing how becoming self-absorbed can change you.
Then later in the group we were all talking and someone mentioned that they don't hear or feel God. And someone replied that they use to feel that way until they started proclaiming everyday "God I know you are there, whether I feel you and hear you I know by faith you are here with me." I realized I need to proclaim, "God I know you are here with me, you gave me these children for a reason. I am the best mom for them. I know you are here and by faith I believe you will always guide me in raising them. I am not perfect and I may not feel you daily, that doesn't mean you have left me."
*On another note, our lot has been cleared!! The builder should start the foundation next week! Matthew and I are trying to make as many decisions about the house now so that as I get father along in my pregnancy we won't have to worry about it. We have bought our appliances! As an adult it is one of those purchases that is really exciting. We weren't going to buy them yet but there was a really really good deal for Presidents Day. Now were are trying to figure out kids bedrooms and colors and which child will be where. Not knowing what we are having is making that just a tad harder but we aren't worried about it.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
My Valentine's Gifts
This Valentine's Day, Matthew and I decided not to do anything for each other. Our house can't hold any more stuff and we need to save our money. We got the kids a little candy but nothing big.
My day started out rough. I had my 3 hour glucose test ( 3 hours ha...I was at the place for 5 hours!) I felt weak and tired. I had to find someone to pick up my kids from the y and school. I knew I had to come home and clean because someone was coming to look at our house. I just didn't have the energy.
I had gestational diabetes with my child and didn't with my other two. My third was 9lbs 3oz and the doctors were sure I had gd and it was undiagnoised. So this time I atr whatever I wanted the week before just to make sure I wasn't "cheating" the system. I went into this test knowing I would have GD and was prepared to have to prick my finger many times a day and be miserable because I couldn't eat what I was craving...right now that is yogart and chocolate milk. I told Matthew it was okay if I did because I don'y want to risk having another big baby and having that baby get stuck too.
I go home and eat my "last" fun meal, which is Chik-fil-a, and don't expect to hear anything until the morning. I get the house picked up. The guy comes and looks at our house and can't believe it hasn't sold yet. He writes a contract right there and our house will be sold before the baby comes.
Oh and the guy just happens to be our builder for our new house. Which should be done about April 30th or so....my due date is May 11th. I have been two weeks early with my last two pregnancies. Do you see how that lines up?? I could potentially be moving into a new house and having a baby on the same day!!! I am soo thankful God is working out things out and this whole process started a week ago. And we will probably be breaking ground next week or sooner! We just have to get all of the paperwork done and loans taken care of. When we bought our lot we made sure the houseplans we had would be approved by the HOA and we had all of the septic stuff taken care of. So a lot of that work that takeweek is already done!! I really like our builder. He is a country boy and is pretty geniuine.
He leaves and my phone rings. It is my doctor's office. I passed my test and don't have GD I do need to watch what I eat but I don't have to eliminate sugar from my diet completely.
I am thrilled and shocked. I was so sure I had GD. I with these two things happen my God was telling me that He loved me and cared about me. It was His valentine's gift to me. I fewlt His love just pour over me. And on top of everything my husband was home early from work to meet with the builder. He saw how weak I was feeling from the test and cooked dinner for the family. I felt so loved!!!
My day started out rough. I had my 3 hour glucose test ( 3 hours ha...I was at the place for 5 hours!) I felt weak and tired. I had to find someone to pick up my kids from the y and school. I knew I had to come home and clean because someone was coming to look at our house. I just didn't have the energy.
I had gestational diabetes with my child and didn't with my other two. My third was 9lbs 3oz and the doctors were sure I had gd and it was undiagnoised. So this time I atr whatever I wanted the week before just to make sure I wasn't "cheating" the system. I went into this test knowing I would have GD and was prepared to have to prick my finger many times a day and be miserable because I couldn't eat what I was craving...right now that is yogart and chocolate milk. I told Matthew it was okay if I did because I don'y want to risk having another big baby and having that baby get stuck too.
I go home and eat my "last" fun meal, which is Chik-fil-a, and don't expect to hear anything until the morning. I get the house picked up. The guy comes and looks at our house and can't believe it hasn't sold yet. He writes a contract right there and our house will be sold before the baby comes.
Oh and the guy just happens to be our builder for our new house. Which should be done about April 30th or so....my due date is May 11th. I have been two weeks early with my last two pregnancies. Do you see how that lines up?? I could potentially be moving into a new house and having a baby on the same day!!! I am soo thankful God is working out things out and this whole process started a week ago. And we will probably be breaking ground next week or sooner! We just have to get all of the paperwork done and loans taken care of. When we bought our lot we made sure the houseplans we had would be approved by the HOA and we had all of the septic stuff taken care of. So a lot of that work that takeweek is already done!! I really like our builder. He is a country boy and is pretty geniuine.
He leaves and my phone rings. It is my doctor's office. I passed my test and don't have GD I do need to watch what I eat but I don't have to eliminate sugar from my diet completely.
I am thrilled and shocked. I was so sure I had GD. I with these two things happen my God was telling me that He loved me and cared about me. It was His valentine's gift to me. I fewlt His love just pour over me. And on top of everything my husband was home early from work to meet with the builder. He saw how weak I was feeling from the test and cooked dinner for the family. I felt so loved!!!
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