Yay!! I'm down three pounds this week! For a total of 25 pounds. I have four more weigh-ins left! I'll be glad when this is over but I can honestly say I've enjoyed seeing the pounds melt away! My goal is to be in the top three women overall! I know I have a chance! I didn't think I would do this good and I'm amazed at myself for being able to do it.
Onto other things. Last Saturday I felt really out of it. I was feeling like a complete failure in all areas of my life. So I decided to work on one of the bigger ones. I went to the Christian bookstore and got two books. One was "Queen Mom" by Brenda Garrison and "Am I messing up my Kids?" by Lysa TerKeurst. My initial thought was they're just moms like me, what makes them experts. I prayed and asked God to show me areas of improvement. It has helped and it's always nice to get advice from other Christian moms. In the first book today I was reading about not ruking with an iron fist. I tend to be angry at my kids. In Brenda's book she quoted Dr. Gary Smalley "Anger is a secondary emotion, not a primary feeling. It arises out of fear, frustration, hurt, or some combination of the three." Wow! It made me realize that I do stay frustrated. Why? My house is always cluttered, my kids don't listen the first time, my husband works more hours and misses out on seeing the kids grow daily. I'm hurt. Why? Right now it's because I continually pray God to heal my children, but they're always sick. Right now Alyssa has a nasty cough. I truly believe God will heal her, but he hasn't yet and it hurts to know he didn't answer the way I think he should. There are many more things I can put on here but I'll spare you. So when I get angry with my kids, I know I need to ask God to reveal the reason behind my anger, right then and there. I don't need to let it go on. Especially when dealing with my kids and disciplining them. I desire to be a calm mom. I do not like this mom that I have become. People often call me super mom. I cringe at that because I know what I've been inside my home when no one else has been around. I'm embarrassed by how I can treat my kids. I survive every day and to other that's what makes a "super mom". I don't want to merely survive. I want to thrive and if I'm doing that, call me "super mom"!!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Half Way there...
I made my goal this week. I lost 2.5 pounds. That's a total of 22 pounds. Only 5 weigh ins left.
On another note...this is for Hallie... Johnathan is doing rather well with adjusting to no paci. It does take him 10-15 minutes to get to sleep, but that's better than I thought he would do. He still asks me for it in the car and when I put him down. He puts his hands up by his shoulders and says "where'd it GO" (Go is said in a higher pitch) It is absolutely adorable and kinda sad at the same time. I love my little man so much!!
Alyssa has been having more and more accidents. I'm not sure what's bringing it on. I wonder if she just wants attention. I don't think it is defience. I think it's kind of hard on her since I've had Michelle. I'm really hard on her, not on purpose, but just because I expect a lot from her. This August we're sending her to a half day pre-school. It was such a hard decision to make. Did we want her half day or all day. Out of the 4 pre-schools, which one would she like best. Unfortunatly, we didn't pick our top choice because of money reasons. But I think she'll really like the one we did pick. I think she'll thrive in the school setting. She's very social. I'm hoping it'll help her learn how to sit still. I don't know if she's every sat still for longer than ten minutes.
Michelle is doing good. She had a really bad case of ezcema two weeks ago. It just kept getting worse. I finally broke down and put hydrocordizone on her. I was really hesitant because it was all of her, from head to toe, and that's a lot of steroid to put on my baby. But I had to do soemthing. It worked mostly. Now I just keep her lathered really good. She will be five monthes old tomorrow. She's getting so big!!!
Matthew's finally home...see ya later!
On another note...this is for Hallie... Johnathan is doing rather well with adjusting to no paci. It does take him 10-15 minutes to get to sleep, but that's better than I thought he would do. He still asks me for it in the car and when I put him down. He puts his hands up by his shoulders and says "where'd it GO" (Go is said in a higher pitch) It is absolutely adorable and kinda sad at the same time. I love my little man so much!!
Alyssa has been having more and more accidents. I'm not sure what's bringing it on. I wonder if she just wants attention. I don't think it is defience. I think it's kind of hard on her since I've had Michelle. I'm really hard on her, not on purpose, but just because I expect a lot from her. This August we're sending her to a half day pre-school. It was such a hard decision to make. Did we want her half day or all day. Out of the 4 pre-schools, which one would she like best. Unfortunatly, we didn't pick our top choice because of money reasons. But I think she'll really like the one we did pick. I think she'll thrive in the school setting. She's very social. I'm hoping it'll help her learn how to sit still. I don't know if she's every sat still for longer than ten minutes.
Michelle is doing good. She had a really bad case of ezcema two weeks ago. It just kept getting worse. I finally broke down and put hydrocordizone on her. I was really hesitant because it was all of her, from head to toe, and that's a lot of steroid to put on my baby. But I had to do soemthing. It worked mostly. Now I just keep her lathered really good. She will be five monthes old tomorrow. She's getting so big!!!
Matthew's finally home...see ya later!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
What's going on
So I am addicted to looking up different free tutorials on little girl dresses. I love to print them out. I now have a folder full of great ideas to sew. I wish I had time to sew. I love making things for people. Right now I want to make Alyssa's Easter dress. My mom bought me some cute fabric that I've been wanting to use. Maybe I'll have enought o make matching dresses for my two girls!
So Johnathan has had a runny nose since the winter began. I don't know what's causing it. I think maybe allergies? But Matthew and I were talking about it on Monday afternoon and we made a decision. We thought that taking his paci away would help. Monday night he went to bed without them. He cried for about 45 minutes and then feel asleep. Yesterday, he didn't take a nap. He just cried and cried :( Last night he only cried for a few minutes and then fell asleep. But he woke up early. He usually sleeps until 8-8:30 this morning he was up at 6:30. I'm about to fix him lunch and the try to get him to take a nap. I pray that his adjustment time will be quick! I have been wanting to do it but was waiting for Matthew to be on board. It's hard to do something like this when both parents don't agree.
Tomorrow I weigh in. I am hoping to loose 2 pounds. Right now I am down one. Will see what happens tomorrow!!!
So Johnathan has had a runny nose since the winter began. I don't know what's causing it. I think maybe allergies? But Matthew and I were talking about it on Monday afternoon and we made a decision. We thought that taking his paci away would help. Monday night he went to bed without them. He cried for about 45 minutes and then feel asleep. Yesterday, he didn't take a nap. He just cried and cried :( Last night he only cried for a few minutes and then fell asleep. But he woke up early. He usually sleeps until 8-8:30 this morning he was up at 6:30. I'm about to fix him lunch and the try to get him to take a nap. I pray that his adjustment time will be quick! I have been wanting to do it but was waiting for Matthew to be on board. It's hard to do something like this when both parents don't agree.
Tomorrow I weigh in. I am hoping to loose 2 pounds. Right now I am down one. Will see what happens tomorrow!!!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Week Four.
I know you are anxiously awaiting my results from this weeks weight-in!!! Well....I lost 3 pounds this week. That's 19.5 pounds in only 4 and a half weeks. Who would have thought that it was have come off so fast.
I couldn't think of anything to get Matthew for V-day this year. So my goal is to be able to lose enought weight to be able to wear my wedding ring. I haven't been able to wear it for 3 years!! So I hope I can do it. I have until Sunday to get some more weight off!!
I couldn't think of anything to get Matthew for V-day this year. So my goal is to be able to lose enought weight to be able to wear my wedding ring. I haven't been able to wear it for 3 years!! So I hope I can do it. I have until Sunday to get some more weight off!!
Monday, February 8, 2010
So, I am having to buy clothes for my three year old now. I wanted to check out ebay and see what all they had. I wasn't planning on buying much, just looking. Well, there was a ton of really cute stuff out there. So I impulsively put bids on a lot of things. I may have outdone myself and am secretly praying I'll be outbid on most of them. But the few things where I am being outbid, I find myself wanting to bid more. So, I'm not going to check my email until these things end. Then, I'm going to have to stay away from ebay. Who knew I would have little self-control in this area. I just know I get tired of only having about a weeks worth of outfits for her to wear. I have a closet full of clothes but nothing seems to go with anything. I need to get rid of a lot of their stuff. It's just hard because my sister and I have always kept all the baby clothes to pass back and forth. Now, my brother's getting married and we'll have another sister to eventually pass things to. It seems that the clothescollection always get added to and never taken from. That's just how it is I guess. Soon, a lot of these items will be out of style and then we'll be able to get rid of them!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Week 3 and Other stuff
This week was so much better than I thought. I lost 4 pounds this week. That makes a total of 16.5 pounds. That is 10% of my body weight from the start of this whole thing. I have been eating better and I feel great. I didn't realize how bad I was being and how bad it made me feel. I still have a lot more to lose. Who knows what the next 7 weeks will hold.
I was bad this afternoon though. Alyssa made cookies with her grandma yestreday and I told her not to bring any home. But she doesn't listen and sent some home. So I just had to eat a cookie Alyssa made and decorated all by herself.
Matthew has done well this week. He's down 14.5 pounds. I am so proud of him. I love him so very much!!
On a very much diferent note. My friend that was talking about divorcing her husband really needs your prayer. She's really hard right now. I've been praying that God would put warning signs at every decision she makes. The whole situation makes me mad, angry, and hurt all at the same time. I'm trying not to hold onto all of those feelings. I don't want to be held back because I haven't forgiven her. It's a daily thing I'm having to do.
I am so thankful for all of my readers.
I was bad this afternoon though. Alyssa made cookies with her grandma yestreday and I told her not to bring any home. But she doesn't listen and sent some home. So I just had to eat a cookie Alyssa made and decorated all by herself.
Matthew has done well this week. He's down 14.5 pounds. I am so proud of him. I love him so very much!!
On a very much diferent note. My friend that was talking about divorcing her husband really needs your prayer. She's really hard right now. I've been praying that God would put warning signs at every decision she makes. The whole situation makes me mad, angry, and hurt all at the same time. I'm trying not to hold onto all of those feelings. I don't want to be held back because I haven't forgiven her. It's a daily thing I'm having to do.
I am so thankful for all of my readers.
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