A Discovery

I started this blog so that I could discover who I am.  Today I discovered I don't like being in a conversation where my words hit a brick wall and fall broken to the ground.  I have a friend that is having issues in her marriage.  But I don't see the problem.  She asks for my advice and I tell her, and it's like she has an excuse for every thing I say.  FRUSTRATING!!!  She could really use your prayers.  Her and her husband have known each other since high school.  The didn't start dating until college.  They got married and have been married for over ten years.  My friend says she feels that God doesn't want her in this relationship because she isn't living up to her potential because of him.  I tell her she needs to read 1 Corinthians.  That the only reason God says you can divorce is if one commits adultry.  She comes back with,  if I'm living a lie isn't that sin,  isn't sin sin no matter what it is??  I went blank.  It was like that the whole time we talked.  It doesn't help that she's getting advice from her friends that are so much happier after they get a divorce.  She has children and I have asked her what about them.  She said oh that they would be fine.  They're the only one of their friends with married parents.  What kind of excuse is that!  I've seen her kids friends.  They have issues!!  I have told her and told her to pray and ask God to give her the love she needs to stay with her husband.  Anytime I tell her that it is like it hits a brick way and falls to pieces.  She claims to pray and have a relationship with God, but everytime I mention Him,  she shuts down. 

I love this person very much.  This issue is a result of other issues.  She thinks this will make her happier but it won't fix what's truly making her unhappy. I pray God gives me the words to speak to her. 

Just a gift

I love helping people.  If a friend needs anything I would drop what I as doing and help them out.  I just realized how much I love it.  A friend of mine had asked me to make invitations for her son's birthday party.  I was able to put one together in no time.  And it's cheaper if you get them printed as a 4x6 picture.  You do have to be careful because the edges tend to get chopped off when you do it online.  Then she wanted to find envelopes so she could had them out.  The only ones she found that would kind of work were $10 for 20.  What a rip off.  SO I invited her over and we successfully made 60 envelopes with card stock and double sided tape. So I helped save her over 30 bucks for envelopes! It was so much fun to catch up and just talk.  She was so thankful.  But I loved doing it.  I would do it for anyone I loved!! It's a gift from me and I never ever want or expect anything in return.  I'm not trying to toot my own horn.  Because that's kinda what it read like.  I am just discovering this about myself. 

AHHH!!!

I just don't get it.  Alyssa was doing so great at using the potty.  Then this past week, she's been pooping on the floor in the bathroom. I don't know what to do.  I don't know why she's doing it either.  She knows she has to go and she makes it to the bathroom.  But instead of going to the potty, she goes on the floor in front of the potty.   

Michelle Kate

Michelle Kate is almost 11 weeks already.  It seems like just yesterday I was completely miserable being pregnant with her.  My pregnancy was long and rough.  It didn't get bad until about the last two months.  It all started with Alyssa birthday party.  The morning of her party at about 3 am, Matthew woke up with severe pain in his stomach.  He wallowed on the bed for 3 hours before I was finally able to talk him into going to the hospital.  He got there and we were able to see the doctor rather quickly.  But he wanted to run some tests.  My mom was watching my two kids so Matthew told me to go and relieve  her and  get ready for Alyssa's party.  It took forever to get Matthew's tests done.  I was running around getting the cake made, getting last minute stuff, and making food.  All the while Matthew was at the er just waiting.  Well, thankfully God was looking out for me and sent a friend over early because she got the time wrong.  So about 5 minutes before the party was to start Matthew calls me and tells that he had appendicitis. They were going to have to do surgery but he didn't know what time.  So, I'm crying and guest were arriving.  Everyone was so understanding and we all had a good time.  As soon as I got the call that Matthew was about to have surgery, I kicked everyone out and went to the hospital.  I worked myself way to hard that day and don't think I recovered until after I had Michelle. 

This is a really bad picture of me but it shows you how large I was and I still had 2 months to go.










My due date was October 4th with her and by the time I got into my third trimester people were asking me if I was going to have her then.  I was huge.  And she sat low.  At week 35 weeks I was 4 cms dilated.  I was helped along on September 19th.  Her delivery was rough.  She had shoulder dystocia and it took my pushing and the midwife pulling to get her out.  They took her straight to the nursery.  I didn't even get to hold her and it was a long couple of hours before the brought her to me.  Then they handed her to me and she felt like a paper weight. She was 9lbs 3 oz.  She was all bruised and swollen from the delivery.

We brought her home and they mentioned jaundice but my other two had it and it went away quickly.  When I took Michelle back to get her bilirubin checked, and I got a call from her doctor saying she had to be readmitted to the hospital because it was dangerously high.  She had to be put under a light, with a Bili blanket, and have a iv.

If you look closely, they put a cup over her hand to keep the IV in.  She was released the next day and we had to keep her under a Bili blanket for a week.









Now, she is a perfectly health baby.  She is already sleeping through the night most nights.  She can soothe herself to sleep already.  She hardly cries.  I love her so much already.  She makes our family feel complete.  I get so many complements on her hair.  She has thick hair, and when it's wet, it has a lot of curl to it.   My favorite feature on her is her eyelashes.  They're so long and thick. 

She has started smiling and cooing. She smiles with her eyes mostly.  It's hard to get her to smile with her mouth.  She's so precious and I'm amazed at how God created her from nothing!!