So, I finally have a moment to sit down and update everyone. I am starting to feel better. I met with the endochrinologist last week and she had good news. She said that my thyroid problem is all due to a pregnancy hormone hCG. She said I should go back to normal after the baby comes. Yay! I am still easily tired but I have learned what taxes me. I am now starting my second trimester and I can tell. That whole sour stomach thing has gotten better and I don't require two naps a day. Although my morning nap last about 2 to 3 hours. I do have trouble falling asleep at night. I have had a horrible cough for a week and I bet once that is gone I will feel almost normal!
We are going to VA for Thanksgiving this year. I am excited and I love to see my hubby's family. They are fun! There are 10 adults, 5 children, and 3 dogs staying at our aunts house. craziness!!! I can't believe the hoilday season is here. The years are going way too fast! I can only imagine how time is going to fly next year when Bradshaw 4 enters the world.
Well, I hope everyone has an awesome day!!
Alaina
Friday, November 4, 2011
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
This is a long update on my pregnancy
I am 11 weeks now. This pregnancy has been so different. It all started on a Friday. I had a bad migraine and took a tylenol 3. I laid down and took a nap while MK played and made a mess. I was suppose to pick up a friend's little girl after lunch to babysit while her mom worked in her home to do people's hair. I felt very off. I got in the car to pick up J from pre-k and felt like I was suppose to drive to my friends house first to tell her I wouldn't be getting her daughter for the day. I barely made it in her driveway before I just felt odd. My friend freaked out on me because she says I was super pale and was very incoherant. I sat on her couch and waited for a nurse friend to get there to check me out, she just happened to be coming to get her hair done at that time. She took my pulse and it was 150. She called my doctor for me and took me to the doctor's office. By the time I arrived my pulse had slowed down but I felt off still. The doctor thought I was just allergic to the codine in the Tylenol 3. I was told not to take anymore. I left and my husband stayed home with all the kids while I just slept.
The next week, I was jittery but not too bad. I was able to function and take care of the kiddos. I was super tired all the time though. I was taking two naps a day. I couldn't stay awake. So, on a Sunday I had another episode. It wasn't as bad but I could tell things were off. I called my sister-in-law, who just happens to be a nurse at my obgyn's office and her dad just happens to be my obgyn. She meet me at the office and they did bloodwork. I slept the rest of the day.
Monday morning I got a call that the results for my bloodwork came back with some of the thyroid levels off. So they had made me an appointment with the family practice dr for Tuesday. I went to that appointment. They ran more bloodwork and did an ultrasound of my thyroid. Because I am preggers they tell me there is nothing they can do and I need to go see an endochronlogist. There are two in the area, both about 45 minutes away. And both are really hard to get into see. So, I wait a week and still don't have an appointment.
The following Tuesday,I have my 10 week appointment and my follow-up appt on the same day back to back. I go to the follow-up and he says the ultrasound revealed nodules in my thyroid. That the endochyrinologist will do a biopsy to make suer they aren't cancerous. I kinda freaked out. I went to my husbands office and cried and cried and cried, pregnancy hormones! So, he took me to my first ob appointment. Dr. J told me there wasn't much to worry about and that it is extremely rare for those nodules to be cancerous. Thank you Jesus! We tried to listen for a heartbeat, he couldn't find one with the dopler so I got an unltrasound to see my tadpole. (i had prayed the night before that I would get to see my baby, I was extremely nervous something bad was going to be wrong and I need some reassurance. He answered my prayers!) Dr. J asked if I had an appointment with the endochrynologist. I told him no that I woulnd't know for another week. He then made me an appointment with an E.N.T. I thought it was kind of strange but I went anyway. The ent was unsure why I was sent there too because I am preggers and he can't help me. But he left the office and said let me make a phone call. He came back and said he had gotten me in to the endochrynologist for the next morning at 8:30. yay! Maybe I would get some answers.
I scrambled around to find someone to take care of each child, b/c it had to leave by 7:20 to get to the dr office. My wonderful family and friends took care of my kiddos. I went to the endo dr. and was hopeful I would get some answers. She talked in a lot of medical jargon that I didn't understand. She did say, I hope you have good insurance. I guess that means I will be going there alot. She did some blood work and said see you in two weeks. That was a week ago. I had a good week last week, but this week I have been jittery and extremely tired. I have a hard time sleeping at night and my poor house is always in dissaray. My sis-in-law has been trying to get my notes from the visit but they still dont' have them ready. I just want an answer as to what is wrong and how they are treating me. I know the endo dr doesn't think it is super serious because my levels weren't that bad. But from everything I have read about thyroid stuff it is pretty serious when pregnant. The risks to baby are high if not treated correctly. I have days where I get really nervous about everything. But God keeps giving me this verse, James 1:2-4 “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” He will take care of me no matter the outcome. I fully trust Him no matter what happens to me or baby. I am praying that His will be done and not mine. It is the only thing I can bring myself to pray. I beg God to heal me and protect my baby but I know He is in control and knows what He plans for our lives. There may be hard times ahead or may be days of great rejoicing. I will choose to believe He has the very best for me.
The next week, I was jittery but not too bad. I was able to function and take care of the kiddos. I was super tired all the time though. I was taking two naps a day. I couldn't stay awake. So, on a Sunday I had another episode. It wasn't as bad but I could tell things were off. I called my sister-in-law, who just happens to be a nurse at my obgyn's office and her dad just happens to be my obgyn. She meet me at the office and they did bloodwork. I slept the rest of the day.
Monday morning I got a call that the results for my bloodwork came back with some of the thyroid levels off. So they had made me an appointment with the family practice dr for Tuesday. I went to that appointment. They ran more bloodwork and did an ultrasound of my thyroid. Because I am preggers they tell me there is nothing they can do and I need to go see an endochronlogist. There are two in the area, both about 45 minutes away. And both are really hard to get into see. So, I wait a week and still don't have an appointment.
The following Tuesday,I have my 10 week appointment and my follow-up appt on the same day back to back. I go to the follow-up and he says the ultrasound revealed nodules in my thyroid. That the endochyrinologist will do a biopsy to make suer they aren't cancerous. I kinda freaked out. I went to my husbands office and cried and cried and cried, pregnancy hormones! So, he took me to my first ob appointment. Dr. J told me there wasn't much to worry about and that it is extremely rare for those nodules to be cancerous. Thank you Jesus! We tried to listen for a heartbeat, he couldn't find one with the dopler so I got an unltrasound to see my tadpole. (i had prayed the night before that I would get to see my baby, I was extremely nervous something bad was going to be wrong and I need some reassurance. He answered my prayers!) Dr. J asked if I had an appointment with the endochrynologist. I told him no that I woulnd't know for another week. He then made me an appointment with an E.N.T. I thought it was kind of strange but I went anyway. The ent was unsure why I was sent there too because I am preggers and he can't help me. But he left the office and said let me make a phone call. He came back and said he had gotten me in to the endochrynologist for the next morning at 8:30. yay! Maybe I would get some answers.
I scrambled around to find someone to take care of each child, b/c it had to leave by 7:20 to get to the dr office. My wonderful family and friends took care of my kiddos. I went to the endo dr. and was hopeful I would get some answers. She talked in a lot of medical jargon that I didn't understand. She did say, I hope you have good insurance. I guess that means I will be going there alot. She did some blood work and said see you in two weeks. That was a week ago. I had a good week last week, but this week I have been jittery and extremely tired. I have a hard time sleeping at night and my poor house is always in dissaray. My sis-in-law has been trying to get my notes from the visit but they still dont' have them ready. I just want an answer as to what is wrong and how they are treating me. I know the endo dr doesn't think it is super serious because my levels weren't that bad. But from everything I have read about thyroid stuff it is pretty serious when pregnant. The risks to baby are high if not treated correctly. I have days where I get really nervous about everything. But God keeps giving me this verse, James 1:2-4 “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” He will take care of me no matter the outcome. I fully trust Him no matter what happens to me or baby. I am praying that His will be done and not mine. It is the only thing I can bring myself to pray. I beg God to heal me and protect my baby but I know He is in control and knows what He plans for our lives. There may be hard times ahead or may be days of great rejoicing. I will choose to believe He has the very best for me.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Oh change....
Do you know that feeling you get when God is about to make a big request from you? Where you start getting little clues that will better prepare you for something big? It is happening to me. I love my family. I love my siblings but my sister and I are very different. Lately, probably because I am preggo, I am realizing that being around her alot isn't very good for me and having her kids around mine, isn't good for my kids. I was watching Joyce Meyers this morning while working out. She was talking about how you need to stop hanging out with people that aren't good for you. I don't pity my sister. I never have. What happened to her and our families was terrible. But pity won't bring my neice back. But Joyce said one little sentence that put that feeling that God was about to make me do soemthing. She said that people with no purpose think that people with purpose are too structured and rigid. My sister and I parent very differently. My goal as a parent is to raise my children up to be followers of Christ, respectful, loving, kind, and mature. I am hard on my children. I expect a lot out of them. I am not perfect. I am not always successful. I am not consistant. My children are handfuls. I spank them, I raise my voice sternly at them (some may call it yelling, but there is a difference when I yell when I am mad or when I am getting a point across). There are times I fail so badly I think I have done irrepairable damage. But I tell my children that a lot. I apologize to them a lot. I love my children a lot. I pray for wisdom a lot. My sister doesn't understand me. At one point she made fun of me while I was in the process of discplining my children. I was livid, but I didn't stand up for myself because I never have, ever with her. She has no idea who I really am. I become a timid mouse whenver she is around. I have no idea what God is going to ask me to do regarding our relationship. But something is going to change, I just know it.
Monday, September 19, 2011
an update
Oh I am pregnant. I am due May 12th. At least that is my due date right now. I love how God helps us forget all of the horrible moments of first trimester blahs. This pregnancy has been my hardest. I get migraines and have with each one. This one I am getting them more and worse. I was taking some medicine, but Friday I my pulse got up to 150. I could't think and I had no idea what was going on with me. The doctor told my not to take the medicine anymore, so I don't know what I am going to do. I am praying for God's grace. I have also been getting the jitters a lot. I am trying to ignore them but it makes for a mommy with a short fuse. I am praying this ends with my first trimester. I pray I am farther along than I think so I will be over all of this sooner!!
Today my baby girl turns two. She is such a joy. I love to just watch her and see her grow and develop. I told Matthew her bday gift is the chance to be a big sister. I always wanted to have a younger sibling and it never happened. I didn't want Michelle to miss out!! (that's not why I am having a 4th)
Alyssa loves loves school. She wakes up before me every day and asks if it is a school day. She gets unhappy with me when I tell her it is the weekend. She does good. I think she will be like me, I was never the problem child, and I was never the top student, so I kinda passed through the cracks. It was fine with me, but you don't get recognized when you are in that position. I need to remember to praise her every chance I get.
Johnny is doing great too. He is mister social and loves all of the girls in his class!!
Matthew just had a lot of chances at his office. They are for the better but he is having to work ALOT right now to make up for some stuff. I am praying God will show him how to organize everything so that he will have more time at home and be efficient at work too. He is an amazing husband and father. I love him so much!!
I am just praying God's will to be done regarding the sale of our house. I would love to move but I want His will more than mine. I know He is taking care of me.
Today my baby girl turns two. She is such a joy. I love to just watch her and see her grow and develop. I told Matthew her bday gift is the chance to be a big sister. I always wanted to have a younger sibling and it never happened. I didn't want Michelle to miss out!! (that's not why I am having a 4th)
Alyssa loves loves school. She wakes up before me every day and asks if it is a school day. She gets unhappy with me when I tell her it is the weekend. She does good. I think she will be like me, I was never the problem child, and I was never the top student, so I kinda passed through the cracks. It was fine with me, but you don't get recognized when you are in that position. I need to remember to praise her every chance I get.
Johnny is doing great too. He is mister social and loves all of the girls in his class!!
Matthew just had a lot of chances at his office. They are for the better but he is having to work ALOT right now to make up for some stuff. I am praying God will show him how to organize everything so that he will have more time at home and be efficient at work too. He is an amazing husband and father. I love him so much!!
I am just praying God's will to be done regarding the sale of our house. I would love to move but I want His will more than mine. I know He is taking care of me.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
God's vision??
Yesterday was kind of a bad day for me. Not because of the kids or any circumstances but just because. I was driving around town, I feel like that is all I have done lately, and an idea came to me.
I want to open a fabric store. I love fabric. I have yards of it tucked into many random places all over my house. Where I live has no apparell or quilting fabric store. Here is what I have invisioned for this store. It will be simple and clean. I want bright fabrics that are fun and girly! I want to also offer many boy fabrics as well. I want to have a couple of cute girl dresses displayed and people can come in and pick out the fabric they want and size they want for the dress. I will make them for you! I will also have a room where people that don't have a sewing machine can sew. I would love the store to be downtown or in a victorian house here. That has always been what I wanted in a store.
Well as I was driving yesterday, I thought of having an after school program. I would offer a after school pick up van and girls that want to learnt o sew can come for two hours after school. Then the idea just grew from there. I thought I could offer almost a home-ec type after school program. Baking, cooking, sewing, bookkeeping and helpful hints for cleaning. I have always had a heart for pre-teen and teen girls. I would only take about 15 girls and if I had a fabric store in an old victorian home I could have an awesome place for something like this. I would love if this could be a reality for me. But I get scared thinking of all of the loistics for something like this. And I know neither the store of the after school program will happen in the next year At least I don't think they will.
I just want to have it written down somewhere. I want God's will to be done in my life. If this is His vision for me I want do it. If not, I will gladly release this vision.
I want to open a fabric store. I love fabric. I have yards of it tucked into many random places all over my house. Where I live has no apparell or quilting fabric store. Here is what I have invisioned for this store. It will be simple and clean. I want bright fabrics that are fun and girly! I want to also offer many boy fabrics as well. I want to have a couple of cute girl dresses displayed and people can come in and pick out the fabric they want and size they want for the dress. I will make them for you! I will also have a room where people that don't have a sewing machine can sew. I would love the store to be downtown or in a victorian house here. That has always been what I wanted in a store.
Well as I was driving yesterday, I thought of having an after school program. I would offer a after school pick up van and girls that want to learnt o sew can come for two hours after school. Then the idea just grew from there. I thought I could offer almost a home-ec type after school program. Baking, cooking, sewing, bookkeeping and helpful hints for cleaning. I have always had a heart for pre-teen and teen girls. I would only take about 15 girls and if I had a fabric store in an old victorian home I could have an awesome place for something like this. I would love if this could be a reality for me. But I get scared thinking of all of the loistics for something like this. And I know neither the store of the after school program will happen in the next year At least I don't think they will.
I just want to have it written down somewhere. I want God's will to be done in my life. If this is His vision for me I want do it. If not, I will gladly release this vision.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
an update
I haven't written in a long time. I have been busy trying to keep up with my three children and just enjoying not doing anything.
We had a great summer, we went to the beach twice for a week each time. It was great and God really blessed me with great family. It was so nice to have my hubby for two weeks with no work involved. He is working so much lately. There are situations at his job that really need to be resolved but he doesn't want to say anything until God's timing because it could mean someone's job and ruin a friendship. I have been praying for favor and guidance for him.
My A started kindergarten this week. She has a hard time adjusting to new situations. She hasn't made any friends yet. The sub in her class said she plays by herself. But I think part of it is because her teacher has been out all week. She knows her teacher outside of school and is confused why she hasn't been there. The teacher's husband had to have 6 bypasses on his heart. He is doing well now and should be home in the next day or so.
My J started 3 year old preschool this week two. He has had no problem adjusting and loves playing with all the kids. His class has four boys and eight girls in it. I think he feels right at home with all those girls!
I didn't realize M would have a hrd time adjusting but her nap time has been thrown off and cut short beause of school pickups. But we will figure it all out. She and I are having fun together!!
A and J both had big birthday parties this year. J's was an airplane theme and A wanted princess and pirates. They had a blast. I love havin friends and family together to celebrate my children. M is next and I haven't figured out what Iw ant to do for her yet. I have a week or two before I need to worry about it.
Emotionally I am doing great. I think gos healed me in the areas I was struggling with. Being able to talk my hubby while at the beach was much needed and he had to help me with all three kids. I am learning my limitations with the children. I know I can't take the shopping unless it is less than ten minutes in the store. When we do activites I am learning how to stop if I can feel myself getting frustrated at them.
God has been good and is bring me to a place of peace in every area of my life. I am excited by all His has in store for my family.
We had a great summer, we went to the beach twice for a week each time. It was great and God really blessed me with great family. It was so nice to have my hubby for two weeks with no work involved. He is working so much lately. There are situations at his job that really need to be resolved but he doesn't want to say anything until God's timing because it could mean someone's job and ruin a friendship. I have been praying for favor and guidance for him.
My A started kindergarten this week. She has a hard time adjusting to new situations. She hasn't made any friends yet. The sub in her class said she plays by herself. But I think part of it is because her teacher has been out all week. She knows her teacher outside of school and is confused why she hasn't been there. The teacher's husband had to have 6 bypasses on his heart. He is doing well now and should be home in the next day or so.
My J started 3 year old preschool this week two. He has had no problem adjusting and loves playing with all the kids. His class has four boys and eight girls in it. I think he feels right at home with all those girls!
I didn't realize M would have a hrd time adjusting but her nap time has been thrown off and cut short beause of school pickups. But we will figure it all out. She and I are having fun together!!
A and J both had big birthday parties this year. J's was an airplane theme and A wanted princess and pirates. They had a blast. I love havin friends and family together to celebrate my children. M is next and I haven't figured out what Iw ant to do for her yet. I have a week or two before I need to worry about it.
Emotionally I am doing great. I think gos healed me in the areas I was struggling with. Being able to talk my hubby while at the beach was much needed and he had to help me with all three kids. I am learning my limitations with the children. I know I can't take the shopping unless it is less than ten minutes in the store. When we do activites I am learning how to stop if I can feel myself getting frustrated at them.
God has been good and is bring me to a place of peace in every area of my life. I am excited by all His has in store for my family.
Monday, July 18, 2011
july 18th, 2011
Today would have been my neice's birthday. She would have been 6 years old. My son is now older than she was when she died. I miss her. I miss my neice. She was silly. She loved pink. Alyssa misses her playmate. This is a pain that never really goes away. I don't express how her death has affected me very much. I don't dwell on her not being here. I know my God is sovereign and I know He is king. I will praise Him always and not faulter when life gets hard. I see now how one day can change everything. I miss Sydney. I miss the person my sister was before this all happened. She still needs prayer. I feel as though the accident happened last week when I am around her, not three years ago.
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