july 18th, 2011

Today would have been my neice's birthday.  She would have been 6 years old.  My son is now older than she was when she died.  I miss her.  I miss my neice.  She was silly.  She loved pink.  Alyssa misses her playmate.  This is a pain that never really goes away. I don't express how her death has affected me very much.  I don't dwell on her not being here. I know my God is sovereign and I know He is king.  I will praise Him always and not faulter when life gets hard.  I see now how one day can change everything. I miss Sydney.  I miss the person my sister was before this all happened.  She still needs prayer.  I feel as though the accident happened last week when I am around her, not three years ago.