SO much is going on in my head today...
I love when God gives you just a simple truth and it can change your life! I was praying for my son because he gets really upset whenever he doesn't get his way. I want him to be happy and joyful. I was asking God what he needs to feel joyful. And BAM! "22 But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,23 gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things!" Galations 5:22-23 As I was praying that my son would have the Holy Spirit be prevalent in his life. I felt like God was saying to me "which of these fruits do you see in your life?" Oh wowza! love...yes I love my children and my husband and my close friends and some family...but love? hmm....joy..nope, i just feel like i am in a constant state of tense...peace...most of the time but what if something major happened? patience, kindness, goodness, and gentleness?? just ask my children about those! They would probably tell you I am mean mommy! Faithfulness? i am faithful when it counts but in the small things..kinda...self-control....ummmmm ask those 10 fun size butterfingers i just ate... So, needless to say I think I am missing something in my life. What little fruit I do have is small and kinda withered looking. I want my fruit to be the talk of the town...the one that the people come far and wide to see. But how do I do that? How? What am I feeding myself? Is my fruit affected my weeds? Are the weeds blocking the supply to my fruit? Taking away the nutrients the fruit needs?? Lord, HELP ME! I can't do this on my own. I need you! I need you and only you! I want to crave you and only you!!! I don't want to be mediocre anymore! I want fruit that is healthy!
Anyway the rest can wait. that is the biggest thing God is working on me!
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We all have room for improvement in our lives, but I want to say that I do see fruit in your life! You're always one to reach out for others, you making people feel appreciated and wanted, you're helpful, sweet, tender, you sacrifice for others, and the list just goes on! I will pray that God continues to show you the fruit you DO have and that he will show you how to continue to "tend the garden". All you can do is keep trying day after day and rely on God to help you. I know I fail all the time but thank goodness his mercies are new every morning!
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